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I don't understand [Oct. 23rd, 2006|10:57 pm]
Danny and I are back together, thankfully. But, there is something eating at me, something I do not understand, I can't talk to him about it because he might get upset, and I don't feel like fighting with him over it.I'm in love with my boyfriend 100 and ten percent, but what I can't understand is in the between the lines. Is he embrassed to be with me? Is he ashmed of me? Is he only with me, till something better comes along. Being in his arm's, I don't feel like this way, but when I log on to other sites that I see him on, I can not help but wonder these mindless questions? I love him with my heart and soul, when we are together, I can not think of anything happier...but when I see single everywhere, I can not help but wonder what is he hiding or who is he hiding me from??
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abortion [Sep. 8th, 2006|06:51 pm]








This is inside of the placenta

























"I could've been a future president!!!"









"Mommy, didn't you love me?"











ABORTION IS WRONG!

GOD LOVES ALL BABIES!!!






"Was I really a mistake DID I HURT U THAT BAD?"









"I'm sorry you didnt love me enough to give me a chance 2 LIVE MOMMY!"













"I could've been a doctor and found a cure for cancer!"



Please repost this!

Hit "Reply" copy the code and repaste in bulletin.








If you don't repost this, you don't have a HEART!!</td>
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Reality Set In [Jul. 1st, 2006|11:13 pm]
So, Life really suck's at this point. I love him more then words' can say and he's probably leaving in two weeks for good. I'd give anything to be with him i'd die and give up the world for this man. He has no idea, how much he means to me. I understand why he's with her, and I can see why he already want's her gone. But, one minute were talkign future wise based on him and I and the next he's gone. I dont feel like typeing anymore..ill be back later..ima go change my layout shit.
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some random pics from the other night withs friends..comment plz [Jun. 23rd, 2006|10:32 am]

























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Just an Update [Jun. 22nd, 2006|03:51 pm]
Hello everyone. So, I haven't been in here since like November. Well, a lot has happened since then, and most of you know it already. Danny and I split up, he did jail time, I moved out of moms house in Feb and in June I came back in, i actually lost my password till now..so anywayz..im back
You Should Be a Romance Novelist

You see the world as it should be, and this goes double for all matters of the heart.

You can find the romance in any situation, and you would make a talented romance story writer...

And while you may be a traditional romantic, you're just as likely to be drawn to quirky or dark love stories.

As long as it deals with infatuation, heartbreak, and soulmates - you could write it.
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top of the head, venting, comment [Nov. 27th, 2005|10:34 pm]
Why does everything seem so strange, life seeming so empty yet so full, everything making it self into an unanswered maze.from a deep rest to an empty soul, happy sad distraught envyed destroyed....what am I getting at? don't ask, I have no idea. Life is unfurnished in reality but in our little puny minds it's all furnished in our decor and patterns...

driving down a winding road with winds at 30mph, on her way from her newly finaces house, who poped the question that night after being together for three and half years, a bad rain storm added to the winding slippery windy road, no one in sight, not even a mouse. suddenly coming front foward, not even a hint, no head lights no nothing was a big semi cam and hit her little neon off a cliff...once with a smile on, now laying down in a ditch with tears to her eyes knowing shes about to die, gasping for air, for her final breaths, she hears the cop say this pour girl is going to die, and the drunk driver is no were to be found. she hears the dective say he found her wallet with her id and her personal belongs. her found her address and drove to her home rang the doorbell and the sight of two little children around the ages of 8 and 5 answered the door, and it brought tears to the dectives eyes, asking their mommy and daddy...shortyly after mommy and daddy came to the door, and asked what was wrong, is it Jenny or Jimmy? The cop said "mam, please sit down, it's about you're daughter Jennifer" With tear's rolling down Father and Mother's eyes, they asked what had happened, the cop held her mother's hand, and said this is the hardest part of my job, and that's telling a young girl's parents that their daughter who just graduated high school three weeks eailer, had killed tonight on her way home just three blocks away from her loving family...Right then, Jimmy walked in, Jimmy was Jenny's twin brother, at only age 18 this big family who was once so happy just lost their only girl...Jimmy was best friends with Greg, Jennys finace, he had just walked in the door asking if Jenny was hope yet, he was Gregs best friend...Greg never got his phone call from her, saying she was okay...Jimmy phone Greg and asked Greg to rush right over...when he got their, in seen the police, Jimmy, the parents, and the two younger boys 8 and 5 sitting in the living room with tears to their eyes...Greg, hunny (cliching to his hand) Jenny was killed tonight on her way home..HOW, WHEN WHY, he shouted the police said by a drunk driver, i'm guess on her way home from being with you..Greg fell to the floor with tears to his eyes...screaming HOW COULD SOMEONE DO THIS..the last memory he has with her is seeing the sparkle in her shiny blue eyes when she said yes, when he got down on one knee asking her to be his wife.......
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survery2 [Oct. 23rd, 2005|11:10 pm]
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:Jacqueline Marie aka Jackie
Birthday:March 27 1987
Birthplace:Lawrence Mass
Current Location:Port Richey Fla
Eye Color:Hazelish Brown
Hair Color:Brown with Blonde Streaks
Height:5'3 or 5'4
Right Handed or Left Handed:Right
Your Heritage:Portueges,French Canidian,Brazilian.
The Shoes You Wore Today:Sneakers
Your Weakness:Danny Love Trust
Your Fears:Love Trust
Your Perfect Pizza:Extra Pepporrine & Red Peppers
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:Finish my Frist school of college
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:"LOL"
Thoughts First Waking Up:Danny
Your Best Physical Feature:Eyes
Your Bedtime:whenever my eyes close
Your Most Missed Memory:childhood
Pepsi or Coke:pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:Macdonalds
Single or Group Dates:Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:Neither
Chocolate or Vanilla:Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:Cappuccino
Do you Smoke:No
Do you Swear:Yes
Do you Sing:No
Do you Shower Daily:Yes
Have you Been in Love:Yes
Do you want to go to College:Im In
Do you want to get Married:Yes
Do you belive in yourself:Yes
Do you get Motion Sickness:No
Do you think you are Attractive:No
Are you a Health Freak:Kinda
Do you get along with your Parents:Yea..Eh?
Do you like Thunderstorms:Yea
Do you play an Instrument:No
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:Yea
In the past month have you Smoked:No
In the past month have you been on Drugs:No
In the past month have you gone on a Date:Yea
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:Yea
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:No
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:No
In the past month have you been on Stage:No
In the past month have you been Dumped:Yea
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:No
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:No
Ever been Drunk:Yea
Ever been called a Tease:Yea
Ever been Beaten up:Yea
Ever Shoplifted:No
How do you want to Die:In My Sleep
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:R.N and a happily married mother
What country would you most like to Visit:Rome
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:Brown
Favourite Hair Color:Brown
Short or Long Hair:Short
Height:5'5
Weight:150
Best Clothing Style:Rebel
Number of Drugs I have taken:0
Number of CDs I own:alot
Number of Piercings:ears
Number of Tattoos:0
Number of things in my Past I Regret:Not enought time to count

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Survery [Oct. 23rd, 2005|11:00 pm]
[Marital Status]Taken. Love You Danny.
[Shoe size]7 1/2
[Parents still together]No
[Siblings]3
[Pets]1
FAVORITES
[Color]Blue
[Number]2
[Animal] puppies/dog
[Drinks] Water/Soda/Milk
[Soda] Mt.Dew or Diet Coke
[Book] Family Album by Danielle Steel
[Flower] Rose
DO YOU
[Color your hair?] Yes
[Twirl your hair?] Yes
[Have tattoos?] No
[Have Piercings?] Yes(Ears)
[Cheat on tests/homework?] Sometimes
[Drink/Smoke?] No
[Like roller coasters?] Yes
[Wish you could live somewhere else?] Yes
[Want more piercings?] No
[Like cleaning?] No
[Write in cursive or print?] Print
[Own a web cam?] Yes
[Know how to drive?] Yes
[Own a cell phone?] Yes
[Ever get off the damn computer?] Sometimes
HAVE U EVER
[Been in a fist fight?] Yes
[Considered a life of crime?] Yes
[Considered being a hooker?] No
[Lied to someone?] Yes
[Been in love?] Yes
[Made out with JUST a friend?] Yes
[Been in lust?] Yes
[Used someone] No
[Been used?] Yes
[Been cheated on?] Yes
[Kicked someone in the nuts?] Yes
[Stolen anything?] No
[Held a gun] No
CURRENTS
[Current clothing] Blue Naughty Shorts,and White Rebel T-SHirt
[Current mood] Happy
[Current taste] Uhh??
[What you currently smell like] Coconut
[Current hair] Down Blonde Streaks and Brown
[Current thing I ought to be doing] Socializing with Amanda,Danny,Kevin,Nick & Alyssa in the living room
[Current cd in stereo] Pretty Rickey Blue Stars
[Last book you read] Family Album
[Last movie you saw] Final Destion 2
[Last thing you ate] Bannaa Popsicle
[Last person you talked to on the phone] Jessyca
[Do drugs?] No
[Believe there is life on other planets?] Mars
Remember your first love?] Yes
[Still love him/her?] Yes & No
[Read the newspaper?] No
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?] Yes
[Believe in miracles?] Yes
[Do well in school?] Yes
[Wear hats] Yes
[Hate yourself?] No
[Have an obsession?] Yes
[Collect anything?] Yes
[Have a best friend?] Yes
[Close friends?] Yes
[Like your handwriting?] No
[Care about looks] No
LOVE LIFE
[First crush] Jeremy Santon in 5th grade
[First kiss] Tony Smith
[Do you believe in love at first sight?] YEs
[Do you believe in "the one?"] Yes
[Are you a tease?] Yes
[Too shy to make the first move?] Depends On The Guy Im With
ARE U A
[Daydreamer] Yes
[Bitch/Asshole] Yes
[sarcastic] Yes
[Angel] 50%
[Devil] 50%
[Shy] Yes & No
[Talkative] Yes

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Lucky 3 [Sep. 26th, 2005|01:46 pm]
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Jacqueline
2. Jackie
3. Jack

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Jacqueline0587
2. Jackie32787
3. Hazeleyez05
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. smile
2. eyes
3. hair

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. ass
2. stomach
3. legs

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. french-canidand
2. portugese
3.Brazilian

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. bein alone
2. dying
3. love

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. friends
2. computer/cell/means of communication
3. MySpace...that's pretty pethedic

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. white K-Swiss
2. light blue jeans
3. NewEngland Patriots shirt



THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. Cry-Mandy Moore
2. Crawling Back To You-BSB
3. With You-Jessica Simpson

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Love
2. Honesty
3. Fun

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order, try and guess which is which):
1. im dating a 27 year old
2. 3-27-is my brithday
3. Im from a big family

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. EYES
2. personialty
3. smile

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. sleep
2. call out off work
3. talk to keith

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. Pedartic RN
2. Pedartic MD
3.Home Wife



THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Hawaii
2. Europe(all of it)
3.Brazil

THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. Julianna LIllian Marie Crook
2. Gavin Colin Robert Crook
3. Un-Decided

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Go To Brazil
2. Get married and have a family
3. Be successful


THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. picky on clothes
2.i love shoes
3. i have to dress to impress

THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. johnny depp
2. paul walker
3. Bradd Pitt

THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. dunno
2. dont care
3. just do it
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I miss These Day...Comment Please. [Sep. 26th, 2005|01:27 pm]
Close your eyes...And go back...

Before the Internet or the AIM

Before semi automatics and crack

Before SEGA or Super Nintendo...



Way back...



I'm talkin' bout hide and go seek at dusk.

Red light, Green light.

Playing kickball & dodgeball until your porch light came on.

Mother May I?



Red Rover

Hula Hoops

Running through the sprinkler

Happy Meals



Wait...

Watchin' Saturday Morning cartoons

or what about legends of the hidden temple, global guts, double dare, and who, ARE YOU AFFRAID OF THE DARK!

couldn't forget Snick

Fat Albert, Road Runner, Smurfs, Picture Pages, G-Force & He-Man Wonder Woman

& Scooby Doo Underoos

Playing Dukes of Hazard

Catchin' lightning bugs in a jar

Christmas morning...

Your first day of school

Bedtime Prayers and Goodnight Kisses



Climbing trees

Getting an ice cream off the ice cream truck

A million mosquito bites and sticky fingers

Jumpin' down the steps

Jumpin' on the bed

Pillow fights

Runnin ' till you were out of breath

Laughing so hard that your stomach hurt

Being tired from playin'

Your first crush...

Rainy days at school meant playing "Heads up 7UP" in the classroom.

Remember that?



I'm not finished yet...

Kool-Aid was the drink of the summer

Giving your friends a ride on your handlebars

Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school

Class Field Trips

When nearly everyone's mom was at home when the kids got there.

When a quarter seemed like a fair allowance, and another quarter a Miracle.

When your parents took you to McDonalds and you were so cool.


I want to go back to the time when...

Decisions were made by going "eeny-meeny-miney-mo"

Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming, "do over!"

"Race issue" meant arguing about who ran the fastest.

Money issues were handled by whoever was the banker in "monopoly"

Catching fireflies could happily occupy an entire evening

It wasn't odd to have two or three "best" friends.

Being old, referred to anyone over 20.

The worst thing you could catch from the opposite sex was cooties.

Nobody was prettier than Mom

Scrapes and bruises were kissed and made better

It was a big deal to finally be tall enough to ride the "big people" rides at the amusement park.

Getting a foot of snow was a dream come true.

Abilities were discovered because of a "double-dog-dare"

Spinning around, getting dizzy and falling down was cause for giggles.

The worst embarrassment was being picked last for a team.

Water balloons were the ultimate, ultimate weapon.

Older siblings were the worst tormentors, but also the fiercest protectors.



If you can remember most or all of these, then you have LIVED!!!



Pass this on to anyone who may need a break from their "grown up" life...


i double dog dare you.

yes you.

so dooooo it.

now.
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(no subject) [Sep. 10th, 2005|07:57 pm]

Were Where You That Morning?

                                                     

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Labor Day of 2005 [Sep. 6th, 2005|07:29 pm]
[Current Mood | depressed]

At work cutting tomatoes, everything going good. Corey asked me to get the drive thru, so I am cashing them out, I cell phone started to ring Corey pick up and hung up, it was Amanda she claled me back. I said Hello and she's in tears screaming "Jackie, Troy's getting the shit beat out of him, by three people". When I herd that, I became weak in the kness and grabbed onto the counter trying to not pass out, I began to cry.  I contiued to call Aprils house, trying to find out why was this happening to him. After multuple phone calls I get a call from April aka the whore, telling me what happened from her eyes. Troy and Amanda came to Arbys and when I seen him..all I could think of was how much I love him, and I can't believe he's hurt. He looked at me with tear's almost to his eyes asking me "Jackie, what, what do you want to know?". Finally, they left arbys after me giving him a kiss on the forehead, afrid to touch him he looked so fragile. Twenty minutes later, the whore calls me telling me the cops were called So I hung up with her and called Amandas cell twenty times till they answered to tell them the cops were called. Another twenty minutes pass by and Troy calls me from my house claming me down and talking, then there's a knock at my door. I hear my dog barking at the door as they continued to knock. Then I hear Troy say "Jackie, I have to let you go hun, the cop's are hear, and please clam down, I'll call you back." Viki and Carlos decided to call me informing me about the cops, which I already knew about, the came to my work telling me that I have to pay them for their help so now I am in debt till im 30.
 Five minutes after Viki & Carlos showed up at Arbys, I get a phone call from Amanda "Jackie, tell Viki & Carlos to get here now, He's in handcuffs, there taking him". I started crying trying to not let my knees give out. Keep In Mind, the only thing Troy did wrong besdies hitting a mail box and hit back once and kick back once was not calling the cops and filing a report frist.
  So, about twenty minute's later, I have to call Troy's mother. I was always conviced that Sandy (his mom) Hated me. So I call her to tell her what's had just happened. That was hard to do, telling her, that her baby boy of 23 years of age is in jail. Telling her that he'd been jumped by April's step dad and new boyfriend...just letting it all happen April stood there.
 After clearifly things with Sandy, she tell's me she likes me. She never dis-liked me, she was just un-easy a year ago when Troy and I dated bcause then he was 22, and I was 17.
 Around 11-11:30ish I get a call from April at Arbys, asking me to hear her out, and give Troy all kind's of message's and to take care of him. She asked me to tell him she never ment for this happen, and she love's him. Bullshit, that's not love, You don't set someone up. You dont call someone, tell them to go pick up their shit, then have you're father beat the shit out of them, and destroy all their belongs you had borrowed.
 I finally go home from work around one am, and I cried and cried layed down and cried. I couldn't sleep I couldn't eat. I was too worried. This morning Sandy called me telling there was four charges put up against Troy.His bail bond added up together was 21 grand. Luckly when he seen the judge at 1 pm this afternoon, he was relased to go home under supervision by his Mother & Uncle.
 His mother, came to my house thanking Amanda and I (Amanda is Troy's Witness) telling me everything that happened at the court house.
  About twenty minutes ago, Sandy came knocing on my door, and I hung up the phone with Tina walked out and see Troy. I rushed over to him and gave him a hug. I love him more than anythin else in this world. I really do, seeing him hurt hurts me, knowing he got hurt, hurt's me. He whishpered to me, "Thank you, Thank you for caring and not turning back on me."  He's going to help me payback Viki & Carlos which is good in the long run, I only make 6.15 an hour...lol. My biggest fear, is how do I break this to my parent's when they came home tonight but they know everything and their plane land's at 9:35 tonight.
 I talked to Mike breifly eailer about the situation..


mikey172005: so what did the judge say?
Jacqueline0587: He's out on ROR? I think it is
mikey172005: never heard of ror but ok
Jacqueline0587: He isn't allowed to contact her or anything, there's four charges..two of slut n battery and two on aggravited or something like that
Jacqueline0587: It begane with an R ROR or RVR somethin like that
Jacqueline0587: His bond was one thousand for one and twenty thousand for the other
mikey172005: damn so hes out now?
Jacqueline0587: he's going to be getting a paper in the mail with int he next week on when court is...and Amanda hs to go
Jacqueline0587: Yea he's out
Jacqueline0587: his' mom goin to stop by here later so i can see him before he goes to his new house.
mikey172005: so no one else got arrested
Jacqueline0587: No..which is freaking dumb
mikey172005: hes gonna stay with his mom right
Jacqueline0587: No..his Uncle.
mikey172005: oh ok
Jacqueline0587: His Uncle got him a job in shit.
Jacqueline0587: Dude, Scott should of been picked up if Troy was picked up.
mikey172005: yeah its safer that way hopefully he wont try to see april or contact her or anyone that it was with
Jacqueline0587: He's not allowd to contact her or he goes to jail.
Jacqueline0587: April called me crying I hung up on her
mikey172005: yea its a dvi
Jacqueline0587: I don't know..Scott punched him like 30 times...Troy hit back once
Jacqueline0587: and kicked him back once.
mikey172005: yea
mikey172005: what was troys last name
mikey172005: isnt it d something
Jacqueline0587: Davis
Jacqueline0587: Troy Anthony Davis
Jacqueline0587: 02-15-82
mikey172005: yea i couldnt remember
mikey172005: cause i talked to tony last night and i was seeing if chuck or dustin knew but they didnt know anything
Jacqueline0587: Aprils neighboor called the cops
Jacqueline0587: Aprils parent's were not goign too till they showed upa t their house
Jacqueline0587: Im at work on the phone with Troy and all of sudden he's like Jackie clam down ill call u back the cops r here
mikey172005: yea amanda said 2 cops came and got him
Jacqueline0587: Yea, I was on the phone with him when he answered the door.
Jacqueline0587: Im the one who told them the cops were on the way
Jacqueline0587: I haven't slept yet...I've been so worried.
mikey172005: yea
mikey172005: im sure he'll only get probation when he goes to court
mikey172005: since he hasnt been in trouble be4
Jacqueline0587: Yea.  Hopefully.
Jacqueline0587: His Uncle is only letting him use the phone to call my house.
mikey172005: yea
Jacqueline0587: It sucked because I had to call his mom and tell her. I didn't know what to say to her or nothing i was scared
mikey172005: the way it works on a dvi he cant call her write her email her or come within 500 ft of her or her work cause if she says he does he goes back to jail no questions asked
Jacqueline0587: Yea, I know about that
mikey172005: did he hit her
Jacqueline0587: no
Jacqueline0587: she was never hit by him
mikey172005: oh so scott hit troy first
Jacqueline0587: yea
Jacqueline0587: Scott pushed troy intot he truck and said leave
mikey172005: well then scott lied and should of been arrested
Jacqueline0587:  b4 he left he pushed him back...but he left so he did...then they called my house sayin to him to go pick up his shit so he did when he got out of the car scott came out and started punchin him
Jacqueline0587: troy punched him back once...and when he got troy on the ground troy kicked him back...then scott kept poundin the right side of his face
Jacqueline0587: scott lied about a bunch of shit
mikey172005: yea
mikey172005: does scott have any warrants that u know of?
mikey172005: man if only i was riding last night
Jacqueline0587: No, I dont know.
Jacqueline0587: I was told by April that Scott lied and said Troy ran scotts foot over
Jacqueline0587: so he that against him too
mikey172005: something told me to ride but i was too tired cause i rode sun night
mikey172005: so whos side is april on?
Jacqueline0587: both
mikey172005: oh
mikey172005: if i would of rode last night i would of been on that case and i could of possibly maybe not had troy arrested
Jacqueline0587: She call's me askin me to give troy a message for her...and then said dude...oh well he got what he desvered
Jacqueline0587: if they never called my house tellin him to go back the fight never would of happened
mikey172005: yea they set him up
Jacqueline0587: The only thing he ran over, is the mail box when he pulled out of the drive way
mikey172005: but whoever arrested troy i guess just only listened to april and scotts story
Jacqueline0587: The cops didn't talk to APril
mikey172005: im trying to figure out who the officers were
Jacqueline0587: They talked to Scott, Marige and the neighboors
mikey172005: did they ask troy anything?
Jacqueline0587: then came to my house and talked to Troy, and Amanda
mikey172005: well at least he got out
Jacqueline0587: Yea, which is good.
mikey172005: and they didnt decide to keep him til the court date
Jacqueline0587: No. Seen a judge this afternoon, and the Public Defender I think it's called is going to be calling amanda and mailin her out the papers
mikey172005: yea but i think both parties are gonna have to go to court to
Jacqueline0587: Yea they will.
mikey172005: his hearing today was just for bail and to see if they were going to let him out
Jacqueline0587: I'm requesting off work that day adn Im going with.
Jacqueline0587: I felt so bad having to be the one to tell his mom
mikey172005: yea
Jacqueline0587: Troy told me he's glad I was at work and not there cause him and amanda though I would of jumped in the middle and then i'd be hurtin and not the two adults
mikey172005: where at aprils house?
Jacqueline0587: Yea
Jacqueline0587: thats where all it happened
mikey172005: yea well if u would of got in the middle of it u would of taken the ride too
mikey172005: so its better u didnt
Jacqueline0587: Evem if I didn't hit either of them?
Jacqueline0587: Just jumped in the middle?
mikey172005: well if u didnt hit any1 then u wouldnt go to jail
Jacqueline0587: The why didn't April take a ride when she jumped in the middle of the fight and her mother grabed out of it when she got hit by the car door from scott.
Jacqueline0587: Yea, I wouldn't of hit them, just jumped int he middle to try n break it up
mikey172005: april got hit?
Jacqueline0587: She said she jumped in the middle to break it up, and scott pushed her intot he car door and the door hit her, and thats when her mom grabbed her out of it
mikey172005: well she didnt go to jail because they must of made her a victim
Jacqueline0587: they dont know that happened
Jacqueline0587: April didnt say anythin stayed in the house snuk the phone and claled me
mikey172005: well i dunno then
Jacqueline0587: A bunch of stupid shit caused by the whore he dated.
mikey172005: yea
Jacqueline0587: April called me today and She's mad cause I don't want to be friend's with her.
mikey172005: lol
Jacqueline0587: I told her no respect but If Troy ever call's you or talk's to you again once this is all done I'm not even friends with him.
mikey172005: yea
mikey172005: its best he dont try to contact her
Jacqueline0587: yea, even when his restriction is lifted he better not
mikey172005: i dont think dvi's get lifted
Jacqueline0587: awsome
Jacqueline0587: then he can never speak to her again
mikey172005: no cause if he does he violates the injunction he goes to jail
Jacqueline0587: In about a week or soo once he's clamd own i'll tell him if i ever fimd out he talked to her im no longer his friend and he cried to me the other tellin me im his bestfriend and im the only one whos eevr been there forh im
mikey172005: yea
Jacqueline0587: I about collapsed last night when I found out he got hsi ass beat
Jacqueline0587: when he and amanda came to arbys...and I saw him I wanted to cry
Jacqueline0587: I think his mom was gettin a camera to get pics doen of his face
mikey172005: how did he get to aprils house anyways?
Jacqueline0587: Carlos truck
Jacqueline0587: Carlos and Troy switched trucks
mikey172005: oh ok
Jacqueline0587: Carlos took Bills so he can bring the boat out
mikey172005: k
Jacqueline0587: and Troy used carlos's
mikey172005: thats kool
Jacqueline0587: and they burned and ripped all of troys shit
mikey172005: damn
Jacqueline0587: and the only pics he had left of his dad, are gone now i feel bad
mikey172005: yea
Jacqueline0587: April had all the pics of his dad...and his dad is dead troy has nothin from his dad now they destroyed it
mikey172005: yea that sux
Jacqueline0587: yea
Jacqueline0587: A part of me wishes I wasn't good friend.
mikey172005: lol
Jacqueline0587: What's so funny
Jacqueline0587: I'm serious, If I wasn't a good friend..I wouldn't deal with this stress, I wouldn't have told his mom, I would of slept last night...but no I have to be a good friend and help out as much as possible
mikey172005: even if i was riding last night i would of done whatever i could to help troy
Jacqueline0587: Coming from you, that's a shocker. But thank's I guess. I know he's be greatfull to hear that.
Jacqueline0587: Even though he felt awkard being around you
mikey172005: yea ive seen the other side of him and i think hes actually b\a good guy
mikey172005: yea alot of people say that because im going to be a cop
Jacqueline0587: He's a good guy. Unforuntely I'm still in love with him. No that's not why he felt awkard around you
mikey172005: but if i think u deserve it ill help whoever i can in whatever way i can
Jacqueline0587: Yea. That's good though.
mikey172005: and if i was there last night i ould of had the officers investigate the others and there storys really good and throughly be4 i hauled troy off
mikey172005: but i didnt get to ride last night unfortunately
mikey172005: tell him if hes goona do anymore shit to wait til the nights i ride
Jacqueline0587: Yea. What pissed me off is April played sides and called me telling me everything as it happened When she knows I look out for troy
mikey172005: yea
Jacqueline0587: LOL...I don't think he'll be getting into more toruble any time soon
mikey172005: hopefully not
Jacqueline0587: HE doesn't need it..he has one point left on his linces
Jacqueline0587: Last year, he took the fault for an accident that he was the passanger for
mikey172005: not just that their gonna watch him closely now waiting for him to do something little wrong
Jacqueline0587: Yea.
mikey172005: im just trying to figure out what ror is for
Jacqueline0587: He told me I worry to much lol.
Jacqueline0587: I don't know if it was ROR i know it was something with R O/V R
mikey172005: lol
Jacqueline0587: I think it was O or maybe R
Jacqueline0587: I was told it had somethin to do with this bail and the supervision his uncle has over him now
mikey172005: yea
Jacqueline0587: yea

So,Hes out for now..till the court date...I hope all goes well...and I hope he know's Im always here for him. It hurt's me to have to tell him sooner or later that once everything blows over, i'll have to tell him either our friendship, or april. If I find out he ever talks to her again him and I dont have a friendship and if he ever says I was never there for him i'll be hurt. I just wish I could go after April but I can't afford to go to jail over a stupid whore. OMG...Fuckin Life...what a Labor Day. I haven't slept yet. My eys are so swollen and puffy from crying. Be Back Soon.

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Three Random Thoughts...Comment Plz. [Sep. 5th, 2005|01:47 am]

Forget You I wont

You tell me you love you tell me if I love you to forget you you are the one i love and care you say our love is real you say our love is a romace off a tv screen but you turn to me  and say "forget me if you still care"  but I sit and wonder if you'd be willing to take a chance for a sweet high fly new romance. (kinda corny I know, I wrote it in "01")

Let Me Be Free


Let go of me, let me be free I know you love me, I know you worry I can see it in you're eyes you think I am all lies But I need you to let go of me I need to be free Don't stand behind me No holding my hand just let me be, just let me go, let me be free!

Torn In The Middle


Why does it always seem were stuck in the middle? Torn between life and death, some how facing life in the middle of sorrow and happiness. Wondering is tomorrow different than today? Always facing another decision, again torn in the middle! Why can't thing's be easy and less hard,again in the middle?

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(no subject) [Aug. 30th, 2005|08:44 pm]
So, Rumor has it that Mike & Viki are going to be dating soon. He's been talking to her, & they like each other. Viki's friend Jessica texted me today, telling me that Viki & MIke are going to date. I'm not supposed to find out. According to them, Mike never liked me, and doesn't know why he dated me...So, once again, I thought I had good guy. But, I guess I was wrong.

Then there's my ex from the summer of 04. I love him still, I honestly do. I'm doing the "just be friends" with him, but Honestly, later on down the road when he's ready...I want to be his girl again, i want to be the girl he has a realtionship with, give's backrubs goodnight to...hugs & kisses...gives a single rose to...the girl who give's him the sparkle in his eye. But, I got hurt, and I buried all my feeling's about him, now theire re-surfacing. It kind of sucks. But, it is life. What can I do?


Do I honestly have "FUCK ME OVER" written on my forhead? Like honestly, do I? All I feel doing is sitting here and crying. How can one hurt so much over this. Why does it hurt, why we do have to go threw pain & suffer like dieing animals in the middle of the rd.??


Mike Doesn't want me..I wish I never broken up with him, my deepest regret..more then anyone will ever realize, no wonder everytime I talk to him about liking me...I get an "idk".

And then there that other guy, well I don't know. I love him, I always have, alway's will. BUt, I don't know if I could do it again. I'd give up anything to be with him.

I just want a boyfriend who care's about me~Likes me~Wants Me For Me~Single Roses once a month for no reason~Hugs * Kisses~Sweet Little Things. Is That 2 Much 2 ask for? Honestly, is it?

Oh Man. What I would give for happiness again.

So friend, help? Love you!
Jackie.


Something From The Heart.PLZ COMMENT.
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venting [Aug. 27th, 2005|02:18 am]
How long can one person pretend that everything is okay, how long can one person keep on living a lie. Once everything seem's to be getting better, it all get's worse. Life has it's up's & down's..and sometime's it seem's it has more down's then ups. No one has a perfect life, but why does it seem to one person that everyone around us is perfect.
Why can't none of us be happy the way we want to. How long do we have to wait to find happeness with one person. Long does one have to wait for anything? SO find satification in anything..how do you come when the one you care or love is off with someone else or showing those feelings for someone else...why is it eaiser to smile like nothing is wrong in front of others, but when it's just you isolated away from everyone..it's easier to break down & cry letting it out..all of it out...Why does it seem that the only way to fit in with you're friend's is to do the same thing's they are doing, good or bad?...WHy does it always feel like that we have please everyone else before we even think of doing something for our selfs?/boys/heartache/friends/trust/hate/love...so many words that we can take for granted...and yet not realized that we are or they are hurting?...why does life go around in a half circle?..Half of it good..the other half?...Our lives are like sun set & sun rise...love is like a rose...and the disney movie Beatuy & The Beast prove it. While the rose is still alive and blooming the love is there still, once the rose dies..there's no rose..why do we always want the ones we cant have?......im me on aim if you wanna talk -jackie32787-

sorry everyone, I just wanted to vent & get everything off my chest for now.
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UGH A LETTER TO ARBYS [Aug. 19th, 2005|02:24 pm]
Keith,

I am a concered crew member of 1310. I'm sorry to say, but other crew member's including myself feel as if, two of our manger's aren't doing the best they can. Frist of all, with all do respect, I don't think it's right for one manger, to sit on her cell phone, during her shift's fighting with her ex boyfriend, and taking her emotions and anger out on her crew.

Second of all, unless we are exteremly busy or if Miss. Donna Hess, is here, our store manger, just sit's in the back. Granted, sometime's he is doing paper work, but other wise, sometimes he isn't. Maybe, that is his job, but shouldn't he in some way help out his team, or at lest motavate us? I am not the only one who has compalined about this multiple times. our general manger, complain to the other mangers about getting crew members to do things, why can't he also help tell us? Granted, we shouldn't be told.

Third of all, some of us believe this store would run a lot smoother, if some changes were made. So many thing's happen, here and yet crew member's are always to blame. If crew member's are not allowed on cell phones, then manger's shouldn't be unless it's a bussiness matter that has to be done with Arby's related. There are crew member's who do use their cell phone's once in awhile here, but we have that one manger who is always on it. That, one manger gives away food, to her friend's.

I don't know if manger's are sopoused to help out their crew during the shift's while cleaning, but if they are able to, or supposed to, then why does only one manger help out? Why is it that one manger has the most respect from all the crew here at 1310, and yet no one realized why. We have one manger, who always lend's a helping hand, and alway's the first one to be there for her crew. If it was not for that one manger half the crew here, if not most would not have half the respect that they have for Arbys.

Granted, maybe manger's shouldn't get involed with their crew, but we have that one manger who desveres a gold, just because she helps, and is always there. It is not because we all get a long so great, it's she understand's and look's at thing's from every angle, not just from a manger's point of view. She look's at it from inside and outside of the box.

Please, do not take this e-mail as something just to complain about, but please take it into deep consideration, that Arbys on Jasmine, does need all the help it can get, it has many negaitives, and we all want more positives. Please, Keith, we've al tried going to Donna, but from our eyes not many thing's has been done. So i've gone to you. If I am questioned, about this e-mail, then please, Keith, let it be you who question's me, and not Donna. I only ask this because you now know which crew member sent this, only because it is from my personal e-mail address.

Normally, I would not go over Donna's head. But apparantly, if we want something done, someone has to do or say something. I have a letter saved on my desktop, that I want to submit to our arby's website. Please, Keith do something, in someway. If I do get questioned, let it be from you.

I'm sorry I went over Tom and Donna's head, but something has to be done, and someone has to speak up. Answer me honestly, if this sound's a little fishy to you, but isn't it kind of ironic,The manager of whom cares is getting ready to put in her notice knowing this now a lot of crew member's are thinking about putting their two week's in because of the way thing's are going,If she leaves none of us want to stay without any help? I'm sorry if I seem selfish, I just would like some kind of answer's to put my mind at ease.

So Keith, thank you for you're time in reading this. I do hope to hear from you back whenever you do have a chance.

Thank you,
Jacqueline Bonfim
Crew member of 1310
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about me [Aug. 18th, 2005|11:15 pm]
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:Jacqueline/Jackie
Birthday:March 27,1987
Birthplace:Lawrence,Ma
Current Location:Port Richey,Fl
Eye Color:Hazelish Brown
Hair Color:Brunett with Blonde Streak's
Height:5'3 1/2 5'2
Right Handed or Left Handed:Righ
Your Heritage:Portugese,Brazilian, French-Candian
The Shoes You Wore Today:Flip flops, then work shoes
Your Weakness:Love, Hate, Trust, Guys, Friends
Your Fears:Love, Hate, Trust, Guys, Friends, Snakes, Bugs, Rats, Betrayl
Your Perfect Pizza:Extra peperonnie with red peppers
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:Do good at PHCC (paso-herando community college)
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:"LOL" "LMAO" "BRB" "OMG" "WTF"
Thoughts First Waking Up:Depend's on my mood, or day, or how my night ended.
Your Best Physical Feature:Eye's
Your Bedtime:Whenever My Eye's Fall Asleep
Your Most Missed Memory:Last Summer Of 2004, but many more excluding that one.
Pepsi or Coke:Pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:MacDonalds
Single or Group Dates:Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:Nither
Chocolate or Vanilla:Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:Cappuccino-French Vanilla
Do you Smoke:No
Do you Swear:Yea
Do you Sing:In the Shower, Alone, Or Feeling Comfortable
Do you Shower Daily:Yea
Have you Been in Love:In some aspect's yes.
Do you want to go to College:I Start Aug.22nd.2005
Do you want to get Married:Yea.
Do you belive in yourself:Yea....Once In Awhile
Do you get Motion Sickness:Not Really
Do you think you are Attractive:No
Are you a Health Freak:No
Do you get along with your Parents:We have our moment's of peace..but I love mom to death.
Do you like Thunderstorms:Yea
Do you play an Instrument:No
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:Yea
In the past month have you Smoked:No
In the past month have you been on Drugs:No
In the past month have you gone on a Date:No
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:Yea
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:No
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:No
In the past month have you been on Stage:No
In the past month have you been Dumped:No
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:No
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:No
Ever been Drunk:Yea
Ever been called a Tease:Yea-Sorry If I Gave You "Blue Balls"
Ever been Beaten up:Yea
Ever Shoplifted:No
How do you want to Die:Peacefully, In Love, While Sleeping
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:R.N
What country would you most like to Visit:Brazil,London,UK
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:Not Really Picky
Favourite Hair Color:Brown
Short or Long Hair:Has To Be Shorter Than Mine
Height:Taller Then me
Weight:Just Don't Be Obest
Best Clothing Style:Not That Picky
Number of Drugs I have taken:One-Weed (Long Time Ago)...But I Though Of Doing Other's.
Number of CDs I own:I Don't Know.
Number of Piercings:Just My Ear's
Number of Tattoos:None.
Number of things in my Past I Regret:A Lot.

CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!
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Answer Honestly [Aug. 16th, 2005|01:33 am]

fill it ouuuut plz<33

1. Have we kissed?:
2. Do you want to?:
3. What would you like our relationship to be?:
4. Have we dated?:
5. Did you like it?:
6. Do you want to date?:
7. Are we close friends?:
8. Would you be here if I needed you?:
9. Are you attracted to me?:
10. Mentally, sexually, or both?:
11. Do you love me?:

Appearance
Do you like my- score 1-10

12. Face?:
13. Eyes?:
14. Lips?:
15. Body?:
16. Arms?:
17. Legs?:
18. Clothes?:
19. ass?:
20. Hands?:
21. Hair?:

Do think I'm- score 1-10

22. sexy?:
23. pretty?
24. Hot?:
25. Cute?:

PersonalityDo you think I'm- score 1-10


26. Crazy?:
27. Nice?:
28. Fun to be around?:
29. Funny?:
30. Annoying?:


Would you..

31. Share chocolate with me?:
32. Spend a weekend with me?:
33. Alone?:
34. Hook up with me?:
35. Kiss me?:
36. Care if I ran away?:
37. Care if I died?:
38. Miss me if I left?:
39. Hang out with me?:

What would you do if..

40. I kissed you?:
41. You found out I was missing?:
42. You found out I was in the hospital?:
43. You found out I was dead?:
44. I cried?:
45. I asked you for help?:
46. I told you I loved you?:
47. I told you I hated you?:
48. Someone told you I wanted you to kiss me?:
49. Someone told you I had a crush on you?:

In the last week have you..

50. Wanted to kiss me?:
51. Wanted to see me?:
52. Talked to me?:
53. Wanted to tell me you loved me?:
54. Wanted to spend alone time with me?
55. Wanted to get to know me better?:
56. Thought about me?:
57. Missed me?:
58. Wanted me?:
59. Seen me?:
60. Kissed me?:

Have I..

61. Kissed you?
62. Hugged you?
63. Told you I loved you?:
64. Made you happy?:
65. Made you sad?:
66. Made you angry?:
67. Made you feel better if you were upset?:

Are you..

68. Happy you know me?:
69. Going to post this  journal for me to reply?

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confused [Aug. 15th, 2005|03:46 pm]
ALL I HAVE TO REMEMBER IS, HE'S NOT TRYING TO LEAD ME ON....Right?
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